June 24, 2010

i'm drained. so so drained, both physically and mentally.

i've so much to tell but the long term exposure to changing numbers in traffic light-like colours and cold air somewhat dried my brains.

while some things cant possibly be put into words.

another weekend's here. a busy one this time.

like and dont like it.

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June 21, 2010

urgh.

some people are just irritating as hell, worse than a hangnail, more than an enormous pain in the ass and definitely more annoying than the endless sound of vuvuzelas!


i'm not interested, I Am Not Interested, I AM NOT INTERESTED AT ALL!!!


this level of annoyance and determination is not cute or at any point considered sweet at all.

i.only.see.desperation.

PUI!


on another note, i just found something that i never knew i had, or at least, forgotten about - an audio cd for the singing competition back in form 6. which apparently starts off with the karaoke version of Mandy Moore's Only Hope followed by Marina McBride's My Valentine, N'Sync's God Must Have Spent A Little More Time and then a whole bunch of classic love songs from the 90's and the early Y2k. the ones which i would have 'em in my dearest iPod shuffle baby when it was still alive =(

talk about how fast time flies, and that scares me.

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June 19, 2010

keep going

like running the 1500m event. you start off at a steady fast pace, making sure you get a good start cos it's going to be a long run. it's crucial to keep going and maintaining the pace but after a few rounds, your legs start to feel wobbly and tired. you feel drained as you look ahead, pushing yourself very hard to lift your legs one after another, making each step nearer to the finishing line which still isn't in sight. as much as you feel like stopping and giving up, you know you cant. everyone has their hopes up high for you; your trainer, your parents, your friends and most importantly, yourself.

it takes time and work to create success. even the seven wonders of the world weren't built in a day, a month or a year.



now i know how she felt.

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June 17, 2010

Roses

i cant help but to re-post this from Elaine's blog.


Red roses were her favorites, her name was also Rose.
And every year her husband sent them, tied with pretty bows.
The year he died, the roses were delivered to her door.
The card said, "Be my Valentine", like all the years before.

Each year he sent her roses, and the note would always say,
"I love you even more this year, than last year on this day.
My love for you will always grow, with every passing year."
She knew this was the last time that the roses would appear.

She thought, he ordered roses in advance before this day.
Her loving husband did not know, that he would pass away.
He always liked to do things early, way before the time.
Then, if he got too busy, everything would work out fine.

She trimmed the stems, and placed them in a very special vase.
Then, sat the vase beside the portrait of his smiling face.
She would sit for hours, in her husband's favorite chair.
While staring at his picture, and the roses sitting there.

A year went by, and it was hard to live without her mate.
With loneliness and solitude, that had become her fate.
Then, the very hour, as on Valentines before,
The doorbell rang, and there were roses, sitting by her door.

She brought the roses in, and then just looked at them in shock.
Then, went to get the telephone, to call the florist shop.
The owner answered, and she asked him, if he would explain,
Why would someone do this to her, causing her such pain?

"I know your husband passed away, more than a year ago,"
The owner said, "I knew you'd call, and you would want to know.
The flowers you received today, were paid for in advance.
Your husband always planned ahead, he left nothing to chance.

There is a standing order, that I have on file down here,
And he has paid, well in advance, you'll get them every year.
There also is another thing, that I think you should know,
He wrote a special little card...he did this years ago.

Then, should ever I find out that he's no longer here,
That's the card...that should be sent, to you the following year."
She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears now flowing hard.
Her fingers shaking, as she slowly reached to get the card.

Inside the card, she saw that he had written her a note.
Then, as she stared in total silence, this is what he wrote...
"Hello my love, I know it's been a year since I've been gone,
I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome.

I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real.
For if it was the other way, I know how I would feel.
The love we shared made everything so beautiful in life.
I loved you more than words can say, you were the perfect wife.

You were my friend and lover, you fulfilled my every need.
I know it's only been a year, but please try not to grieve.
I want you to be happy, even when you shed your tears.
That is why the roses will be sent to you for years.

When you get these roses, think of all the happiness,
That we had together, and how both of us were blessed.
I have always loved you and I know I always will.
But, my love, you must go on, you have some living still.

Please...try to find happiness, while living out your days.
I know it is not easy, but I hope you find some ways.
The roses will come every year, and they will only stop,
When your door's not answered, when the florist stops to knock.

He will come five times that day, in case you have gone out.
But after his last visit, he will know without a doubt,
To take the roses to the place, where I've instructed him,
And place the roses where we are, together once again.

='(

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June 13, 2010

Sometimes you just want to go back to crying all day long but u know you can't, cos you're stronger than that.

It's a Sunday morning. Let's make it a meaningful one alright?

=)

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i gave my all

believe it or not, you just know, and it's true. That's why psychics are usually women. Lol


Eric Benet - The Last Time

The first time I fell in love was long ago.
I didn't know how to give my love at all.
The next time I settled for what felt so close.
But without romance, you're never gonna fall.
After everything I've learned;
Now it's finally my turn.
This is the last time I'll fall... in love.

The first time we walked under that starry sky,
there was a moment when everything was clear.
I didn't need to ask or even wonder why,
because each question is answered when your near.
and I'm wise enough to know when a miracle unfolds,
this is the last time i'll fall in love.

Now don't hold back, just let me know.
Could i be moving much too fast or way too slow.
'Cause all of my life, I've waited for this day.
To find that once in a lifetime, this is it, I'll never be the same.
You'll never know what it's taken me to say these words.
And now that I've said them, they could never be enough.

As far as I can see, there's only you and only me.
This is the last time I'll fall in love.
Last time i'll fall in love.
The last time i'll fall... in love.

ok, i want this song to slow dance to on my wedding night. lol

anyone else into slow lovey dovey romantic songs? these few are heart-melting too. ♥

Eric Benet & Tamia - Spend My Life
Marc Anthony & Jeniffer Lopez - No Me Ames Balada
Mariah Carey, Baby Face & Kenny G - Everytime I Close My Eyes

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June 11, 2010

my Mactards and i =)

and now, time to celebrate the start of the world cup. get ready to partay~!

*smooch*

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June 10, 2010

the bells are ringing

today is by far the most boring day at work! that's the downside of working at an investment bank.. when there's not much trading activity since it's the school holidays now and with the world cup around the corner, there's nothing much to do! because of that, i got pranked by my colleagues >.<>i guess it's not easy to go through years of ups and downs with a particular person, sharing all your life experience growing together as an entity. it's a blessing to be able to make it through and bring the relationship to the next level.

*melts*


Jim Brickman & Tara MacLean - You

I never felt alone
I was happy on my own
And who would ever know there was something missing
I guess I didn't see the possibility
It was waiting all the time
But it never crossed my mind
Till you opened up my eyes
Now all I think about is

You in my life
In my dreams
In my heart I know it's true
That I belong with you
Because of you in my world
In my arms
I have everything and now
I can't imagine what I'd do
Without you

I never thought that love could be
Such a curiosity
But what attracted you to me
Was so unexpected
But it was waiting all the time
And it never crossed my mind
Until you opened up my eyes
Now all I think about is

In my life
In my dreams
In my heart I know it's true
That I belong with you
Because of you in my world
In my arms
I have everything and now
I can't imagine what I'd do
I can't imagine what I'd do
Without you
Without you

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June 09, 2010

ohh meee goshhh

mom's suggesting i grab those cheap fares to aussie!!!!

ann,

CROSS YOUR FINGERS CROSS YOUR FINGERS CROSS YOUR FINGERS!

cos i'm opting for MELBY!

p/s: dont leave out 'em toes too!!! =P

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June 08, 2010

S03E03

B. : I want you to have this.
C. : Why.
B. : Cos I love you. You enormously stubborn pain in the ass.


"what would you think we would have been like when we're old and grey?"

"still arguing and irritating each other forever as always."


it just makes me laugh, somehow.

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June 07, 2010

wake up! wake up! wake up!

okay, so finally... about work.

let's see now.. if i can just arrange my memories collectively, first day of work is as always, which i'm sure applies for everyone as well, awkward. a totally new environment, new faces and new things to learn from! the only person i know in that 4-storey building and was also the one who interviewed me, is aparently dear soochie's mom! (i know.. penang can be that small right..) so the first day started off with the introduction tour. sooch's mom took another new staff and i around, introducing us to nearly every staff of all the departments. like how a mother would introduce their son/daughter-in-law to every single relative of the family at a wedding dinner.

"This is Ms. Amy, intern, dealings."

i lost count how many times sooch's mom had to repeat that sentence over and over again. lol after all that hoo-ha, i was then "dropped off" at my department. the place was a havoc! the phone lines kept ringing continously one after another, the staff were all either on the phone or shouting from one end to another for figures, market news can be heard from the televisions tuned to the bloomberg channel and loud chatter on politics and the economy from the elderly were all simultaneously happening! like crazy wei and i was just, lost. but after awhile, i got used to it and fine tuned it to the right decible. so now i dont find it noisy even one bit.. lols

after a few hours when everything settled down, i was then being introduced to each person of the dealings department which only consist of around 15 people. the head of department, Jessline was on leave so they had no idea what to do with me. lol the people there are hilarious and warm =) each one of them actually makes an effort to make me feel comfortable as part of their team. most of them are in their late twenties, pretty ladies and pretty boys as well =.=" where are my small-eyed hotties?! yes i know i'm a sucker for 'em. >.< ANYWAYS, the first week was a whee bit boring cos everyone was busy so i was practically either reading the newspaper or staring into space throughout the day.. and maybe a task or two to send documents to the other departments. but this week so far had been a handful! Jess is back at work and she thought me quite a lot! i've started to make calls to her clients, updating them about the regional market status and all. i've never been any sweeter and friendlier than ever on the phone till now. okay.. maybe i did, at a few points of time in my life. but bottom line, it's an experience. work's kinda P&C so i cant say much. =/ everything's pretty much alright. nothing to complain about just yet, though i'm not very fond of the working hours! 8am to 6:15pm =( but on the brighter side, my lunch break can stretch up to an hour and a half when the KLSE closes for the lunch break! whee~

updates till here aight?

my bed and huggables are calling..

nighteyy =)

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June 06, 2010

Word of the day : TALK

You can never rationalize with yourself.

An open discussion not only helps you re-evaluate the true nature of an occurance but it also reminds you on which grounds you once stood upon and should continue to stand on..

Thank you =)


P/s: will try to update on work soooon.. Lol

nights peeps!

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June 02, 2010

FYI, I'm still alive

Haven't been doing much for the first two days of my internship but yet it's draining me dry!

Will update soon in detail on my first day, my workplace and the people..

Till then, the princess sooooo needs her beauty sleep.

Nights peeps.



Idkw I miss you.

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