July 28, 2010

a sudden halt

I need to drop everything for the moment and try to handle this shit.

I'm being stalked, harrased and may potentially be threatened. (you may think it's a lil too dramatic an exaggerated but I'm preparing myself for the worst! something tells me that something is not right and might just turn out bad, you'll understand when I tell you the situation) I don't want to end up hitting the headlines on issues and cases which are currently seen in the newspapers on a daily basis.

I'm worried and scared shit.

but by hook or by crook, I need to solve this problem!

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July 27, 2010

i'm writing you a note.

it's nice receiving news about someones marriage, how sweet your friend's boyfriend are treating them or how loving seeing an old couple strolling down the park hand in hand. but at the same time it's heartbreaking knowing that i'm not that fortunate enough, just yet.

whereas it feels so scary hearing news about how all kinds of problems start to arise when they just started to continue on with their chapters as husband and wife.

it makes my heart beat in confusion and fear.

but i guess sometimes it's just that leap of faith you'll have to take.


Love the Way You Lie - Eminem ft. Rihanna

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I suffocate
And right before I'm about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind at his back
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set this house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie


he still remembered how it was that night.
i still didn't move,
i still hadn't change,
i still stayed the same =(

as when i was, 4 years ago.

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July 24, 2010

she's feeling the pinch

and the pressure is on!

it's high time to grow up and think beyond her years for a while.

what if plan A fails? what's plan B or C or D?

*gasp*

sigh.

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July 18, 2010

妹,

what would you have suggested me to do?

姐.


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July 14, 2010

Baby Buhneys!!!



or watch it here.

Cuteness beyond words

when I get a pet buhney, I'll be naming it baby.

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July 12, 2010

she finally got scolded

cos he believes it's about time for her to come to her senses so she needs to stop reasoning with herself.

there is no reason for her to cry. she just needs to do what she knows is best for her, just live LIFE happy. =)


anyways, what's new and most talked about? it's none other than the 2010 World Cup. yea, amazingly i watched through the whole final match with a few great company over burgers and juices even though i had work the next morning at 8am! (i nearly missed work from oversleeping! lol) so it was down to Netherlands (NED) and Spain. i was rooting for NED cos i just wanted to go against what PAUL, the "psychic octopus" predicted. me no likey the fact that PAUL chose Spain over Germany for the win in the quarter finals match! (even though the prediction was right) still, a traitor!!!! you were bred and apparently a PR in Germany! you even got your name from a German children's poem - Der Tintenfisch Paul Oktopushow! how could you!!?? LOL so, as expected, i did my part in carrying out MISSION: essen Tintenfisch (hint: it's in German), the very next day after Germany's lost to Spain! well, the mission sidetracked a bit, not the main aim but still under one of the sub-missions.

back to the finals match, i nearly had a cardiac arrest! my heart stopped beating for a second or two each time either one of them tried to score a goal. the match was so intense! and even before half time, i was already pissed with that baldy referee. IMO, he was more concerned on giving out yellow cards than actually supervising the game play and his judgements seem kinda bias. i'm not saying the NED players didnt deserve those yellow cards for those who actually did hurt the Spain players unintentionally or not. but some of the "accidents" arent even their fault! i remember seeing a replay of one of those mishaps which clearly showed that the NED player came in contact with the opposition's upper part of the body, like the arm or something. BUT apparently, the Spain "victim" ended up rolling on the field like the rolie polie olies, with a devastating-worse-than-labour-pain expression on his face while his hands gripped tightly onto his, LEG! the heck?! it didnt happened once okay.. most of the yellow cards given to the NED were from those dramatic acts by the Spaniards! so drama.. like very severe sufferers of ADHD! pfftt. the best actors are found on the field. haahaa

but oh well, it was worth the watch. intensified entertainment!

so now that the World Cup is over, work is going to be hectic! now time to catch up on my sleep.

nights peeps.

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July 07, 2010

lunch break randomity

i'm alone in the office cos the rest of the staff is attending a meeting with the big boss.

i'm thinking of having a "sinful chocolate day". a day when everyone gathers and indulge on chocolaty desserts which include chocolate mud cake, chocolate lava cakes, fried snickers and mars bars, my g-spot brownies and anything chocolate!!! so who's with me?

Amazingly, Paris Hilton's perfume smells apple-lish like the DKNY apples but even sweeeeter! i smell very huggable today~ lol

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July 06, 2010

syndrome X

okay, it's high time i update on the past few crazily busy weeks. (warning, excessive photos ahead! credits to various cameras)

first off would be, Sonia darling's homecoming! i cant believe that it's been a year already since she last came home. it's really scary how time flies, everything still felt like it all happened just yesterday. i guess i just dont want to grow up. the faster time flies, the faster i'd have to mature and face the world as a grown adult. but i'll forever be that little Amy at heart. well that, is the downside of being the youngest child - the need for copious amount of attention, pampering and love. but anyways, homecomings always go with partying!

yea, i have a thing for the rocker-chick pose since it goes very well with my bling ;)

on another night of partying, darling & yours truly.

well of course it aint all about partying, i managed to had a great time catching up and having heart to heart talks with my darling by the beach one fine afternoon over fried calamari and french fries ♥ and also for some shopping at island in boxers!

then of course, the usual coffee sessions for gossips and what not.

.. and the laughter over makan session with the rest of the girls and their other halves (if applicable lol). i just cant help but to put up this photo of ming's new japanese tourist boyfriend! konichiwaaaaa~

apart from the wonderful time spent with the girls, work has been fun and yet boring at times. it can get so boring to the point that finding counter names of certain companies listed in the share market somehow became our favourite pastime. lucky for me, i've got a few partners to do lame things at the office. but generally, i love the people there! they're all so nice and fun. there's never a day at work that i dont laugh =)

work during the last week of June was half spent on helping my head of department, Jess's maid of honour to finish up all those little details of her wedding. from checking the table list to tying ribbons on the game cards. (refer to pic above) one thing that was new to me was the wedding vows printed out for the groom. among the 20 commandments of the wedding vows, these are the few which i like:

  • I will remember that I am your husband and that I love you. I will be kind to you. And I shall not let you wash the toilets.
  • I will appreciate you more and express it more often.

  • I will give you 30% of my salaries and bonuses. And I shall bear all your expenses on spa and facial treatments.

  • I will apologize more often, even if the hurt was unintentional. I know that since we are different people, it will be impossible not to hurt you at times, I will take responsibility, say, "I am sorry" and not accuse you of being overly sensitive.

  • I will not underestimate the power of small gestures, the special smile, the note, the small gift, the loving word. I will always kiss you every morning and every night before going to bed.

  • I will make our marriage a priority. I will find some time every day to spend with you alone, for at least a few moments. ♥
  • I will make every effort to go out with you, when possible, several times a month. I know all relationships need talking and time together. I know that the stronger the marriage, the more stable the family. I will make the effort to have a half yearly oversea trip together.
  • I will love you with all my heart! ♥

it's sweet and funny in a way. touching and yet hurtful, at least for me. so here are some photos of the wedding day for you all to feast your eyes upon.

the morning when the groom came over to "pick-up" his bride, he had to go through some semi-torturous games. and here you have it, the four pretty ladies with the 4 game cards all ready and waiting to be picked.

you could see the eagerness of the groom to see his bride, with the bridal bouquet in one hand and the wedding vows on the other, signed and witnessed. =)

at the garden wedding ♥

i love her gown! it's corset-like on the back and the details are just so beautiful!

the champagne pouring and toast during the dinner.

qian & i, the bubbly & cheerful angels of OSK. lols!

finally a near complete group photo of the penang dealing department.

i shall stop here first before i bore you all with too many pictures.. more updates soon (that is also if i remember what to update on.. lols) AND as always, much much more photos on fb. so stalk me. lol
toodles.

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July 05, 2010

Shontelle - Impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know, I know

And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible!
Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did...

aint they pweety? i remembered your words. ♥

so much to update on!

but now since everyone's all footie crazy, i'll have my pick on GERMANY! the reason being? cos got a lot of 'entau bahS'! *grin*

till then,

she needs to do what she thinks is impossible and accepts that some things are just impossible.

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July 03, 2010

The big baby still cries.

But you have no idea how relieving it is.

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July 01, 2010

it hurts ='(

but it's time to tend to my brownies.

updates, soon.

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