what say you?

it's either i put it all behind me and settle for something i never picture myself in

or not settle for anything lesser because i don't deserve it.

someone just make a decision for me.

Cos I'm breaking

As much as you push yourself to be stronger than you actually are, it's still so hard to just cope with it all.

I just don't know where's the limit.

oh look! Mr Grim Reaper just passed smiling at me!

FML

stress die me.

i don't even know where to start.

i finish work everyday looking like an 18-wheeler just ran over my face at 200km/h (though in reality it is obviously impossible) but i feel and look that way, i just cannot help it.

worst of, being away from home and having no one to express to but this pathetic post is even more pathetic.

not forgetting that suddenly you realize you're not even worth doing charity for, that particular person would rather gamble, donate or use up an amount of money at least or even more than for what a two-way budget ticket would cost. mahai.

adding salt to the wound, you realize as you get older, it's always just a form of courtesy that people sympathize for you. they don't literally mean what they say. if it would had been a life and death situation, they probably would have to be sorry overlooking my face in the coffin, just not this time. not yet.

so, trying to get a grip on myself in coping on every aspects of my life ('cept family, family's always good. blessed in a way i guess =/) while trying to de-stress by spending money compulsively and watching horrid gory movies of slitting throats to make meat pies from human meat. yumms.

i should be standing in Nick Cassidy's place - on the ledge.

oh gawd, let this be over.

reaching greater heights

"this record is inspired by something that is really normal, and everyone's been through it, which is rubbish relationships"

- Adele, Grammy Awards, 2012 -

nothing reaches out better than broken hearts of fragile beings.

my gag.com

and the silly naive girl thought someone actually love her.

going through our chat archives made me realized i had totally forgotten how wonderful it was like having your closest friend like a sister to share every detailed ups and downs with. though miles apart, the care and love could truly be felt.

it has been more than 4 years not being able to seek solace and strength from you.

"there once was a little girl who never knew love until a boy broke her HEART"

-Megan Fox-

over promise, under deliver

if you're of worth something, words will have the same value to it.

but if you're worth nothing, words will only be mere words, they just mean the same - nothing.


you just start to unconsciously try to literally hold up your chest, as if to support your lung from collapsing onto your heart which was already striving to beat a normal rhythm..

here we go again.

time for a breath of fresh air!

it's time to end those meaningless nightmares.

somehow the balance of responsibilities between sexes had already been determined thousands of monkey donkey years ago. so when either one doesn't want to take the responsibility, then you're really, literally fucked up.

there's no one else to blame but yourself for making those fucked up decisions. you reap what you sow.

it's the 21st century, no woman cannot stand alone without these insignificant beings. assholes.

time to bring out that partying spirit!

fooled again.

>>please insert Fool Again by Westlife song now<<

you feel more cheated every time. yays!

Not Like The Movies - Katy Perry

=/

on bended knees

2011 didn't ended the right way it should be, for both Western and Chinese calendar years. all doors are shut closed now, without the slightest crack of light.

i really really really need this year to be a good one.

gasping for air

first day working with the news back in my head doesn't make things any less stressful.

I really need a reason to look forward in completing my daily task and then be assured that comfort and security is waiting for me to return home to.

so how am I going to cope now.

in need of assuring hugs to breakdown for a moment =(

sigh.

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