one month and counting

Still missing you dearly..

Days haven’t been the same.

I was looking forward to going over to your place on the third day of this year’s Chinese New Year like how it has been for the past few years when you were back in penang.

I was looking forward and hoping to give u a surprise visit in Sydney sometime in May so we can celebrate our birthdays together like how we used to during high school.

I was looking forward to your baking session and the feast you promised to prepare for me and make me fat again.

I was looking forward to bringing you out to practise your driving when I’m back for the CNY holidays since u were very excited that you could finally drive though you had your license for a few years already.

there's so much that i look forward to ever since you got back from aus. i miss spending time having fun n doing nonsense or even just lepak around doing nothing with you. i miss being the one looking over your stuff for you, telling you not to do things which you shouldnt do but yet do it for the fun of it n to satisfy your curiosity. i just miss you.

If your demise was partly for me to learn to be stronger, to have the courage to talk to strangers, to meet more people n make new friends, and not to be so apathetic anymore, I’d rather not have all these opportunities or change than to loose you.

Growing up for the rest of the remaining years of mine without you will be hard.
I always picture all of us reminiscing about all the ups and downs we had been through, all the nonsense we did in school and the memories we’ll have when we grow older. I cant believe the last chirstmas eve was the last time we’ll ever talk about our high school ‘adventures’ together as partners, best buddies, n sisters.

But I’m still glad I did spent my last Christmas with you, and that you had a chance to know more about merv and so did he. I just wish that we had more chances to hang out together, for movies, food, shopping n just lepak-ing – just the 3 of us.

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The past weeks had been very hectic, I’m still actually busy with more assignments and upcoming exams. Just had a quiz and 2 exams yesterday.. 2 more on the way.. 3 more assignments to due soon after finishing 3 during the past 2 weeks. But yet, I choose to do nothing today. Exams and assignments aren’t the only thing that’s bothering me now.
What’s worst is I lost the charm bracelet Nian and Ann gave me for my 18th birthday! @!#$%&* out of all things.. i don't even know where i dropped it. went for dinner, got back to continue studying n just before i go to bed, i finally realized that it was no longer on my wrist.. someone probably picked it up cos i've search everywhere n retraced all my steps but just cant find it. ARGH!

going to put up a notice in merv's n my hostel in hopes that someone actually finds or have already found it. if someone comes up to me with the bracelet with the intention of keeping the bracelet for themselves in the first place, if not for the reward of RM100 that i'm offering, SHIT U.

need to get back to studying. sigh.

love u nian.