Jason Walker - Down

you just have to pick yourself up after every fall, brush the dirt off and clean the wound. it might take awhile but it will heal.

daddy's girl

i can still clearly visualize that very night i bawled my eyes out; it was the second time daddy saw his grown little girl crying because that same boy hurt her feelings.

with a sad frown on his face, he told his little girl, "there is no use crying my girl, what is yours will come back to you in the end."

from then on, he was very lenient towards his little girl, just to ensure that his little girl would be happy once again.

he would watch movies on his lappie every weekend night to stay awake, waiting for his little girl to come home and yet did not complain or mention one bit about those awfully late nights which stretch throughout more than half a year.

he would pretend that he doesn't know about his little girl's misbehavior and let her get away with it.

he took her to Bali where she loved so much the first time she was there. hoping that the the sea waves and tranquil wonders of the underwater world would take away her sorrows and troubles.

he would treat her banana split, her all-time favourite dessert and take her out so she wouldn't feel lonely or confine herself in her room feeling miserable.

throughout the years, all he wanted was the best for his little girl. providing her the things she loves which are in his means.

and i'm blessed for that wonderful daddy, my papa dearest.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!

with love,

may.

note to self: never ever put your hopes up so high, they always, always never fail to come crumbling down like a massive landslide.

my heart literally stopped when i couldnt find your profile with the search bar.

at times, i hate how clingy i am to things, how i tend to hold on to any possible bits of denial to comfort myself that there is still a connection somehow.

changes just scares me.

especially loosing people whom i hold very dear to.

it's nearly 4 years now. feels so much like yesterday, anticipating your homecoming this time around, 4 years ago. how we talked about all those wonderful schooling memories we had throughout that Christmas eve.

still missing you.

♥,
姐

Johnny Cash - You Are My Sunshine

The other night dear, as I lay sleeping

I dreamed I held you in my arms

But when I awoke dear, I was mistaken

So I hung my head and I cried

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine,

You make me happy when skies are grey

You'll never know dear, how much I love you

Please don't take my sunshine away

I'll always love you and make you happy

If you will only say the same

But if you leave me and love another

You'll regret it all some day

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine,

You make me happy when skies are grey

You'll never know dear, how much I love you

Please don't take my sunshine away

You tole me once, dear, you really loved me

And no one else could come between

But now you've left me and love another

You have shattered all of my dreams

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine,

You make me happy when skies are grey

You'll never know dear, how much I love you

Please don't take my sunshine away

In all my dreams, dear, you seem to leave me

When I awake my poor heart pains

So when you come back and make me happy

I'll forgive you dear, I'll take all the blame

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine,

You make me happy when skies are grey

You'll never know dear, how much I love you

Please don't take my sunshine away.

and then you thought that all the songs you learnt in kindy were of happy cheerful stories.

muddled. very muddled. much.

i feel like i'm suffocating as these four walls of the earth starts to inch in closer.

i cant even express myself with all these tangled ball of feelings and thoughts.