exploding with emotions

okay, first of all i'm finally back from my dreadful "intensive english course".. thank God i was put in a class with really nice people.. nothing from what i expected.. only thing was my lecturer.. it's not that she cant speak english.. she's alrite BUT the fact that she treats us like primary kids really makes me loose my patience at times.. she keeps telling and explaining to us in different ways over and over again.. i'm sure we're all not that dumb.. but sometimes she just tends to explain more which in turn made us more confused.. GAAAA... i understand her enthusiasm in teaching us.. but we are not 10 year olds...

anyway, i shall tell u all a lil more on what i actually did through the whole course.. well, we learnt a great deal of grammar i tell u.. there's the simple tense, simple perfect tense, simple perfect continuous tense, past tense, past perfect tense, past perfect continuous tense, simple future tense, the passive voice, hypothetical possibilities with 'if' and past modal verbs of 'could have/should have'.. SOOOOO INTERESTING I TELL U.. besides that, we learned about essay writing, comprehension passages n vocabulary.. reminds me so much of our english lessons during primary school days.. oh ya.. not to forget, we were supposed to sit for a listening test, n a written one which includes comprehension, vocab n essay writing of 250-300 words, impromptu speech, role play (don't ask me what is it for. all we did was just acting n have forum discussions), last but not least, keeping a journal for a week.. i'm already having much problems trying to update my blog and you all are expecting me to keep a journal entry everyday for a week? i had troubles thinking of what to write after the first entry.. haha typical me.. and whatever we do throughout the course actually contributes to our CGPA/PMS for the semester.. -they better give me an 'A'- lol

so, before i start bitching about certain things, let me just post up pics of the 21st birthdays that i've said in the previous post..

so.. after sonia darling's bday celebration, it was my baby's birthday on the 29th.. i feel kinda bad for not being able to throw a party for him cos my first paper of my finals was on the day itself.. therefore i just managed to treat him dinner a few days before.. sorry baby..

took him to tgif since he loves steaks.. hehe

pic of our cup of mushroom soup.. it was really really good.. creamy n full of mushrooms.. yummilicious!

his jack daniel's steak..

and.. that's it.. cos we forgot to take a photo of my beef ribs as i was starving n started pigging in right after all the food was served.. lol but it was really superlicious, yummiliciously delicious.. cant wait to go there again.. =) other than that, i surprised him with his birthday present waiting on his bed in uni.. forgot to take a pic of it too.. all my hard work of wrapping it.. sigh.. but glad that he loves it.. tee hee hee..

next up on the next post would be pics of my 21st! i know i'm really far behind time when my birthday was like a month ago.. but please bear with me now k.. i just need to bitch now.. no more mood to blog about my wonderful celebration.

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it's been a while since i start to be bitchy but i can be a bitch if i choose to be one OR if someone forces me too.. but still, i'm not all that bad cos i dont embarrass other ppl in public or anything like that.. mine's more of the sarcastic remarks kinda thing..

one thing you all should know is when i don't like someone doing a certain thing to me, i really mean I DONT LIKE IT.. and i will go all out to tell you that I AM UPSET and ANGRY about it. no other explanations required especially if u've crossed the line. i'd rather just be acquaintances than to continue being friends. i rarely make friends so what more not want certain friends? that only comes to one conclusion. which means u have officially PISSED AMY FONG YOKE MAY OFF.

how can someone you know actually diss about you and question your actions with another person whom he/she has just known for a year compared to your friendship of 3 years??!! just because you like him/her doesnt mean you can turn your back away from your friend who has cared n be so considerate to you compared to that person who has been taking advantage of you??!! are you that blind to not see the truth??!! some may say that this is the world.. never would i thought that the world is so small that it happens to be in the circle of my friends.. or other than that, maybe the world is that shitty and getting more fucked up.

is there a problem for my bf to drive all the way to see me cos he feels that it's worth it?? i did not force him ok damnit? neither do i not know how hard it is to pay for the petrol especially after the government removed the subsidy for petrol prices.. i DO PAY FOR HIS PETROL AT TIMES.. I USUALLY OFFER TO PAY.. comprende??!! so how can you and him/her make such remarks about me when he/she is the one who doesnt care about your petrol??!! he/she can even INSTRUCT you to go here and there.. dare you deny it. i heard it myself out of his/her mouth. but all u can see is NOTHING n u would make all kinds of excuses for him/her.. what about times when i made excuses for bloody you??!! and besides, what made my bf drive all the way to see me was because I WAS DEPRESSED as i was feeling lonely which only leads to thinking of nian.. all you know was just to enjoy ur time with him/her.. you have never lost a best friend.. you never know what it feels like.. and dare you question why my bf had to come and think it wasnt necessary. blogging about this just makes me so furious.

whatever i did was not appreciated whereas he/she is being treated like a goddess. PUI! don't ever come calling me to talk about him/her.. you're on your own now. i'm not interested about your feelings and on what you have to say.. don't even call me your sister anymore. i've got other friends whom i need to care more for.

friends play a big part in my life. but i dont see any point in saving this friendship as it will only go back to square one.. as for that, GOOD RIDDANCE!

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