urgh.

some people are just irritating as hell, worse than a hangnail, more than an enormous pain in the ass and definitely more annoying than the endless sound of vuvuzelas!


i'm not interested, I Am Not Interested, I AM NOT INTERESTED AT ALL!!!


this level of annoyance and determination is not cute or at any point considered sweet at all.

i.only.see.desperation.

PUI!


on another note, i just found something that i never knew i had, or at least, forgotten about - an audio cd for the singing competition back in form 6. which apparently starts off with the karaoke version of Mandy Moore's Only Hope followed by Marina McBride's My Valentine, N'Sync's God Must Have Spent A Little More Time and then a whole bunch of classic love songs from the 90's and the early Y2k. the ones which i would have 'em in my dearest iPod shuffle baby when it was still alive =(

talk about how fast time flies, and that scares me.

when the tables turn

so it's a mutual understanding in between two individuals which not everyone can tell. i share a couple of these mutual understandings but it doesnt make me any smarter in knowing how to identify one. you dont ask, you wont know. but what not known does not hurt. i shall not satisfy someone's curiosity for the sake of satisfying mine. ;)

but i'm still curious! meh. other people's emotions or how i interpret them are starting to affect me again.. sometimes i just wish that my brains arent that hardworking and rather take a leave or two.. that department has overworked! i cannot afford to pay OT wages to 'em.. =( i just took a whole load off and finally successfully flushed them down the loo.. so be good and stop thinking about non-substantial stuff can? =/

Anyways, the past few days had been pretty random.. from hiking up to 84 to movies and to chilling sessions.. time is passing by so fast that it's only a week and a half till my internship starts! *frowns* i havent even started baking yet! *double frowns* time to stock up on baking ingredients and burn the kitchen down! green tea konnyaku jellies, anyone?


cos she's just ... afraid.

the most disconnected ramblings, ever.

i am too easily affected by other people's emotions.

but at least i know, i aint the only one.

he goes through it, i go through it, everyone goes through it.

it seems so much easier to just get on with the next best thing which you think is right.

but it doesnt change the fact, just merely hiding it from sight.

out of sight, out of mind.

someone once told me, sometimes you just have to create a lie to make yourself feel better.

i take mine to the extreme.

i rather deal with death.

i've successfully fabricated the lie into my reality.

i want to hop on the next flight to Melbourne.

would you join me?

so you wont be miles away from her while i wont be from him.

i just had a hell of a day.

for the first time, it felt as if i was from gheyland and not the island. i actually spent 10 hours in total at that place and drove around as if i knew the place at the back of my fingertips. (maybe a little laa) i give myself some credit for being able to actually make my way to sunway from inderawasih without any help. so this is what my day summed up to:

• sunway damn boring to jalan. though i heard those departmental stores crying for my attention, i didnt find anything to my liking =/
  
• all segafredo franchises should like seriously stock up on their tomatoes! if you dont have 'em, dont put it in your menu! at least let your customers know what's available and what's not to avoid disappointing them and put them into another dilemma in deciding what to order again. one more time they tell me that they are out of tomato tonic, i'm going to go to the market, get a tonne of over-ripe tomatoes and have a La Tomatina with all the segafredo franchises in penang.
  
• Guinness has got this sourish weird malt taste to it. not bitter, but SOUR like malt really gone bad. lols and mind you, my taste buds are perfectly fine.
  
• gheyland's got pretty much some nice food and the duck egg fried koay teow in BM (Bukit Mertajam) is da bomb! the smell of it is just.. mmm yumms~! cant wait for the next time there again. heck, cant wait for food trail!
  
• the bridge's so much pweetier at night. pweety street lights all lined up in rows while overlooking the other pweety lights from the island and gheyland. *hearts* i cant even remember when was the last time i traveled across the bridge during the night.
  

on another note, i might have drowned earlier tonight? yes, i love the water and might want my ashes to be spread out in the sea as well, but i dont think i actually had drowning in the 15ft end of a swimming club pool in mind.. i've been helping dad out at his pool lessons, taking over some of his classes when he's got too many students to handle in one night, for a few years now. but tonight's lesson was by far the most challenging, one which puts all my years of experience to test. to cut the story short, the worse case scenario? it's either the fella ends up on the surface like what he wants BUT with a punctured lung or i drown. meh.

while we're at this topic, bare with some of my rants which i've put some thought and observation at for quite some time now. scuba diving isnt a sport or an activity which u seek glamour from learning it. it's not about how many dives and how deep you've gone or where you've dove before. it also isnt about feeling more superior just cos you've had your hand in a sport which not everyone has the chance to experience. yes, i admit it's an expensive sport but so what? it's not for you to show off. and now with cheap and fast courses the other commercialised diving school are offering (which i shall not mention in detail here), every tom, dick and harry can "proudly" say that, "i can scuba dive". i can feel and sense that it's starting to become what i would call, "overrated". the way how i dont like it with the iPhones (will touch on that another day). i do see people around who boast that they can dive but they dont even know nuts about appreciating the underwater world. do you even know how to take care of your gear or nottt?? do you even know how to set up your tank properly or nottt?? no righttt?? then shhhuutttuppp.

on an even random note, i miss our quartet i miss our quartet i miss our quartet. i saw ming and yan's vid recording of 'more than words' for sonia darling's birthday. sweeet =) and oh! i found videos from sookie's camera of the english week back in form5 - our drama, singing and the stupid things we did at the hall after the event. sadly, sookie's digital camera back then didnt come with the voice recording so the vids i have are like the ones of charlie chaplin's films. sigh. i miss singing with the girls like SO much! how we would work on the songs together and practice for over a million gazillion times just to perfect it! =) we so need to get together and make a comeback! lol

look what i dug up!

us performing at Vanilla's Place during the French Arts Festival, 2004.♥

i think i dont wanna grow up

as i get older, i learn to view a lot of things in a different perspective. i start to notice more on the small details in life; how much i'm blessed on a daily basis, how much my dearest parents shower me with unconditional love even when i'm already nearly the age of 23! i will always be their little amy girl in their eyes. while as much as brother dearest rarely shows that he cares, deep down he still does. some things doesnt need to be said upfront. amy's thankful because she nearly always gets what she wants =) NOTE: it's because amy dont always ask for stuff. i may be spoilt as the youngest child in a way but i'm certainly not a brat! =P

daddy's been very lenient and understanding for quite some time now. i guess as much as he has always wanted his amy girl to be a tough cookie, he realised that she's still vulnerable in being hurt and helpless. one thing i learned is that parents know best. they will always be there to guide and support you without a doubt, in which i'm glad that i could, like how facebook puts it, "re-connect with" my parents. ♥

the past few days spent back home had been great! brings back so much childhood memories on how i would just sit and stare at the tv while bro plays his PS for hours, pestering korkor day in day out, to get me stuff *grin*, doing stupid lame things and running around the house screaming like a brat... (ok, maybe this is whee bit exaggerated. i've toned down a lot and well, you all get what i mean.. lol) all in all, the princess is glad she's finally back home for good, for now.

on a random discussion, does anyone have any idea on how to differentiate local chinese girls with those from China? any particular facial structure or features that actually defines if one is from China or not? i know this may be stereotyping and the local chinese here in Malaysia are somewhat originated from China, but it is still differentiate-able right? i've been mistaken as a korean for a couple of times before. okay la.. i understand the small eyed, flat long face of the koreans which i have.. but recently, it's CHINA. *rolls eyes* China? i've been mistaken as a China girl not once, but TWICE! with AND without makeup. meh. is that suppose to be a compliment? cos i find it more of an insult. sad to say, i can only relate the China girls here as those who contribute to the service sector of a country's Gross National Product (GNP), which apparently is not recognised here in Malaysia. in non-economical terms, prostitutes. mind me for stereotyping again but generally, majority of them here are. now this is even more depressing. cos now i'm classified, slutty. sigh. =( i should start starving myself so that my flat long face becomes prominent again. haha

the China girl says hi.

i want to just laze by the seaside till the whee hours of the morning, EVERY NIGHT.

like how juls put it, the freedom to just enjoy life.

free from obligations, free from stress, free from worries, just plain relaxation.

i.so.need.that.

*pouts*

daddddyyyy, mmmommyyy....

can i go ... i need a ... cos it's ... cos i want to see ... and also cos i miss ... so i need to ... I WANT TO GO ...

the annoyance of every youngest child brings.

*pester pester pester*

>.<

and so, we bid farewell to 2009

it seems that the years keep passing by faster and faster. it's like God decided to hit the fast forward button like what i would usually do while playing the Sims. (yes, i still play that game once in awhile =P) it was just like yesterday when we celebrated Chinese New Year and i seriously have no recollections on my 22nd birthday. 2009 has been like a mush.. i can vaguely remember bits and pieces to it but it's just all somewhat mushed up. bad year i suppose.. lol this year has been an exceptionally fast one, but i'm looking forward to 2010!

well, not the part when i'm in uni of course.. this would be the first time i'm actually looking forward to be done with uni. i hate the place and seriously have regrets going there. people are still asking me why did i chose to go there. i used to find joy in explaining to them cos i knew what were my priorities back then. but now i come to realise how silly i was. i guess when we're young, we tend to mix up our priorities. that's when parents come in to help sort them out, but being the rebel we were, we never listened. i'd just have to make the best out of the final semester then. a challenge for the new year.

so a lil sneak peak of what i'll be going through in the coming year. i'll be undergoing my internship training in OSK investment back home in penang. funny thing is dear soochie's mom was the one who was handling my application. penang is seriously tiny.. lol i just cant wait! it'll be a whole new experience. learning new stuff and meeting new faces =)

next on the to do list in year 2010,

• go new places! whee~ =)

till then, time to prepare my resolution list!

toodles

p/s: HAPPY NEW YEAR!

i have such a common face, v2.0

okay, so it's either i'm getting damn gorgeous by the day or our island is starting to be overpopulated with desperate men.

i'd say, the latter.

so, as i was walking back to my car after work, some guy probably in his late 20's or early 30's approached me asking if i'm from Citibank. urgh. do i really have that Citibank look? he aint the first to say that but anyways, to cut the story short, he was pretty damn desperate to get my name and number. to the point that he was still persistently asking for it even though i had already gotten into my car and started to get out of the parking lot.

"CALL ME!"

*nods head* (in your dreams...)

LOL =)

then the phone rang, to check if i was okay after having a glimpse of my "dramatically-ridiculous-scene".. talk about chivalry or rationality.. pfftt... oh wait, we're in the 21st century.. so scrape off the chivalry acts.. but rationality? though modern technology has made our lives easier (especially the invention of calculators, which have made us all so dependant on it even for simple calculations.. basically not using our brains anymore) doesnt mean that we're not subjected to use our heads to analyze and act on something so obvious? well then again, it all depends on who the person is as well right? double standard.. typical. PFFTT.

thank God it wasnt a robbery or somewhat. or else i wonder how the heck will i be able to answer that phone call. LMAO.


on another note,

Happy Belated Birthday Daddy dearest!

upside-down pineapple cake!

i'm so bloody TULAN.

how comforting it is to know that u have someone who is always there to IRRITATE and PISS U OFF.


i find this semi-relieving

it's that day of the month

Note: this post may contain disturbing images. Viewer discretion is advised. (dun say i didnt warn u ar..)

when everything just seem to go wrong and gets on your nerve. arrggh.

i need to go for retail therapy. BUT I DONT HAVE THE MONEYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!


it just gets worse.

so frustrating. urgh.

pics taken from Contemplating Reiko

abandoned.deserted.forgotten.

yet again, i leave my blog to wither the bitterness of being in limbo.. abandoned. deserted.& forgotten.

in short, nobody's interested in visiting my blog anymore cos i don't update. hah.

anyway who would be soOOo interested in my blog? being famous like Kenny Sia, Xia Xue, etc. etc. isn't my purpose of starting to blog in the first place. i don't even know who still bothers to drop by this pathetic outdated blog of mine when i have loads of time to click around on other ppl's blogs to look look see see and kaypo kaypo but just too lazy to update mine. =)

well, i recently came across one of chung lern's post here. (note: ramblings from this point onwards may be a bit "drama" cos i'm in the mood to tembak ppl.. haha)

so.. should i be all bitter and cry cos i'm very sure that "People losing interest on my blog just because i dont update." hah. but since he/she put it that way, ppl might just be interested in my blog cos i seem to find my blog filled with a number of depressing post, more "drama".. haha. but hello, just because CL has someone new and no longer post depressing posts up in his blog doesnt mean he never felt the pain before. doenst mean that he somehow dug out a chunk of his brains with memories of nian and flush it down the toilet bowl, then somehow miraculously survive and has no recollections about the past. don't be such a donkey, can?

sigh. a bit mad and disappointed. i mean, how can he/she say such things to CL? is it against the law that chung lern is able to move on and be happy with his new found love? it's definitely non of his/her business and he/she is in no position to judge CL. i'm happy and proud of CL cos it isn't easy especially for emo ppl like us (tht's if he's still emo like me.. lol) to move on from what has happened. i guess this experience has made him stronger, in which i'm still trying to achieve (forgive me, but i'm a bit of a s-l-o-w learner.. lol) and i'm glad that he's happy with Stephanie (though i've yet to get to know her but she sounds nice from CL's posts) =)

oh.. btw, back in penang!!

boo hoo hoo...

it's been two weeks plus since i got back from the english course and i'm going back to uni on friday!!! T_T

I DUN WANNA GO BACK TO THAT ULU KAMPUNG UNIVERSITY!!!

sigh.

been working at kumon cos i'm just too lazy to find a new part time job and sadly there wasnt any good 3-day job pay opportunities like the property fair job for Sunway i had been working for.. i had already spent more than half of my pay on the MNG sales on the night i got my pay itself.. and i have yet to do my grocery shopping, shop for 'appropriate' clothing, shop for more shoes!! and yada yada yada.. i am so in need of money..

double SIGH..

going back to uni also means not being able to go for movies, SHOPPING (the MEGA SALES is near!!!!), go 'bersunset', have fun at the beach, go on a holiday, club, REDBOX, bully shawny, send sonia darling off, welcome sookie cookie, and basically just not having any chance to have fun with the girls.. T_T

TRIPLE SIGH.

this is so depressing...

i wanna cry.. ='(((

~take me away... a secret place, a sweet escape.. take me away..
take me away to better days, take me away.. from that dreadful place!!~

exploding with emotions

okay, first of all i'm finally back from my dreadful "intensive english course".. thank God i was put in a class with really nice people.. nothing from what i expected.. only thing was my lecturer.. it's not that she cant speak english.. she's alrite BUT the fact that she treats us like primary kids really makes me loose my patience at times.. she keeps telling and explaining to us in different ways over and over again.. i'm sure we're all not that dumb.. but sometimes she just tends to explain more which in turn made us more confused.. GAAAA... i understand her enthusiasm in teaching us.. but we are not 10 year olds...

anyway, i shall tell u all a lil more on what i actually did through the whole course.. well, we learnt a great deal of grammar i tell u.. there's the simple tense, simple perfect tense, simple perfect continuous tense, past tense, past perfect tense, past perfect continuous tense, simple future tense, the passive voice, hypothetical possibilities with 'if' and past modal verbs of 'could have/should have'.. SOOOOO INTERESTING I TELL U.. besides that, we learned about essay writing, comprehension passages n vocabulary.. reminds me so much of our english lessons during primary school days.. oh ya.. not to forget, we were supposed to sit for a listening test, n a written one which includes comprehension, vocab n essay writing of 250-300 words, impromptu speech, role play (don't ask me what is it for. all we did was just acting n have forum discussions), last but not least, keeping a journal for a week.. i'm already having much problems trying to update my blog and you all are expecting me to keep a journal entry everyday for a week? i had troubles thinking of what to write after the first entry.. haha typical me.. and whatever we do throughout the course actually contributes to our CGPA/PMS for the semester.. -they better give me an 'A'- lol

so, before i start bitching about certain things, let me just post up pics of the 21st birthdays that i've said in the previous post..

so.. after sonia darling's bday celebration, it was my baby's birthday on the 29th.. i feel kinda bad for not being able to throw a party for him cos my first paper of my finals was on the day itself.. therefore i just managed to treat him dinner a few days before.. sorry baby..

took him to tgif since he loves steaks.. hehe

pic of our cup of mushroom soup.. it was really really good.. creamy n full of mushrooms.. yummilicious!

his jack daniel's steak..

and.. that's it.. cos we forgot to take a photo of my beef ribs as i was starving n started pigging in right after all the food was served.. lol but it was really superlicious, yummiliciously delicious.. cant wait to go there again.. =) other than that, i surprised him with his birthday present waiting on his bed in uni.. forgot to take a pic of it too.. all my hard work of wrapping it.. sigh.. but glad that he loves it.. tee hee hee..

next up on the next post would be pics of my 21st! i know i'm really far behind time when my birthday was like a month ago.. but please bear with me now k.. i just need to bitch now.. no more mood to blog about my wonderful celebration.

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it's been a while since i start to be bitchy but i can be a bitch if i choose to be one OR if someone forces me too.. but still, i'm not all that bad cos i dont embarrass other ppl in public or anything like that.. mine's more of the sarcastic remarks kinda thing..

one thing you all should know is when i don't like someone doing a certain thing to me, i really mean I DONT LIKE IT.. and i will go all out to tell you that I AM UPSET and ANGRY about it. no other explanations required especially if u've crossed the line. i'd rather just be acquaintances than to continue being friends. i rarely make friends so what more not want certain friends? that only comes to one conclusion. which means u have officially PISSED AMY FONG YOKE MAY OFF.

how can someone you know actually diss about you and question your actions with another person whom he/she has just known for a year compared to your friendship of 3 years??!! just because you like him/her doesnt mean you can turn your back away from your friend who has cared n be so considerate to you compared to that person who has been taking advantage of you??!! are you that blind to not see the truth??!! some may say that this is the world.. never would i thought that the world is so small that it happens to be in the circle of my friends.. or other than that, maybe the world is that shitty and getting more fucked up.

is there a problem for my bf to drive all the way to see me cos he feels that it's worth it?? i did not force him ok damnit? neither do i not know how hard it is to pay for the petrol especially after the government removed the subsidy for petrol prices.. i DO PAY FOR HIS PETROL AT TIMES.. I USUALLY OFFER TO PAY.. comprende??!! so how can you and him/her make such remarks about me when he/she is the one who doesnt care about your petrol??!! he/she can even INSTRUCT you to go here and there.. dare you deny it. i heard it myself out of his/her mouth. but all u can see is NOTHING n u would make all kinds of excuses for him/her.. what about times when i made excuses for bloody you??!! and besides, what made my bf drive all the way to see me was because I WAS DEPRESSED as i was feeling lonely which only leads to thinking of nian.. all you know was just to enjoy ur time with him/her.. you have never lost a best friend.. you never know what it feels like.. and dare you question why my bf had to come and think it wasnt necessary. blogging about this just makes me so furious.

whatever i did was not appreciated whereas he/she is being treated like a goddess. PUI! don't ever come calling me to talk about him/her.. you're on your own now. i'm not interested about your feelings and on what you have to say.. don't even call me your sister anymore. i've got other friends whom i need to care more for.

friends play a big part in my life. but i dont see any point in saving this friendship as it will only go back to square one.. as for that, GOOD RIDDANCE!

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updates?

i know and i admit that i have been very lazy in keeping this blog alive.. but if i dont, it'll probably go emo and not publish my posts when i really feel like blogging, like my previous blog.

so anyway, updates updates updates..

as most of my girls already know, i'm now on my semester break for about a month and a half.. got back 2 weeks ago actually BUT i have to go back to uni tomorrow for like 11 dreadful days... for what u might ask? FOR SOME STUPID COMPULSORY ENGLISH COURSE BECAUSE I GOT A BAND 4 FOR MY MUET EXAM.... =.=" i shall not elaborate further on how i got a total of 219 points though ONE POINT away from the band 5 mark, but was contented cos i didnt want to waste another RM60 to retake the exam since EVERYONE says that having a band 4 mark would definitely SUFFICE for a local university.. call me cheap but i just DONT LIKE sitting for exams.. little did i know that the local uni or more like my uni has changed the system and made the english courses compulsory to serve the purpose of:

1. improving the english language among the local undergraduates
2. just to fulfill our credit hours... wtf


i'm going to be stuck in a class with, no offence but with chinese educated students and malays who can barely speak proper english... it's not like i'm being all proud with my english just because i'm "english ed" but it really irritates me especially those who tend to show off their abilities of conversing in english with the usage of certain 'bombastic' words i never even heard of before when they cant even understand the words that are coming out from my mouth..

i admit i'm not all the good and perfect in the language myself but at least i can speak decent english.. this just reminds me of a salesgirl who was trying to convince me in buying their shoes when i was out shopping at queensbay with sonia darling n mingy dearie.. she said, "this shoe very comfort!" and as i looked at the girls, ming just happily looked at me and say, "it's very comfort!" while tryin to hold back from bursting into laughter.. lol okay.. my bad.. i guess on the 'good' side of it, they actually have guts or sometimes too much guts to speak in a language they aren't familiar with.. well, i guess the same goes to them when i speak in mandarin or hokkien, laughing at my intonation and accents which i didnt even know i had..

so anyways, let's see what did i not blog about aside from all my emo-ing posts..

of course. all the 21st birthday parties i've attended so far, including mine =) though i couldnt attend carmen's, yen's, chuen's n sooch's cos of uni.. grr. anyway, (warning: loads of pics ahead!)

first off, sonia's 21st!
like a replay of sonia's 17th birthday party 4 years ago, BBQ at sonia's house.. this time with the combined celebration of sofia n uncle Vj's birthdays as well..

sofia n her group of friends..
then... and now..
carmen's polaroid!
the nicely decorated tables with coloured candles.. (captured by ming)
food! the lamb was great! everything tasted so GOOD i tell u..
ming n i cam-whoring with the very unique mirror in sonia's dining hall.. while waiting for the rest to come.. lol
with the wonderful creation of the digital camera, no one needs to worry bout wasting photo films anymore.. hence the endless snapping of pictures, leaving mervin n i not being able to eat at peace.. haha
a picture of the juniors getting all very 'excited' after finishing probably a carton of SHANDY.. well, we were once that age on a very similar occasion but i don't remember us competing in drowning ourselves in shandy.. oh well, times have changed i guess..

but MGSians will be MGSians no matter where they are, juniors or seniors, never fail to "make a lot of noise".. we were considerable quiet that night cos our loudspeakers, the miss tans - sookie n pei wen weren't around.. not forgetting jienny anny n nian dearest..
and here we are, looking all high n drunk over, orange juice. haha

the very famous raccoon eyes pose.. and yes, we are childish but we had fun =) i think the juniors took more normal looking photos than we did..

so, we ended the night with a game of 'higher or lower' and all ended up looking half drunk.. haha

guess i'll just blog about the other 21st birthdays another day cos i'm getting lazy for now and since i'd probably have ample of time in uni for the next 11 days =( i might as well blog when i'm there then, that is also IF the stupid wireless connection still works. bah!

toodles.


love u meimei <3
dinner with ur family! =)

finals are just around the corner.. and yet, making myself busy with college projects, movie series, and not forgetting, my most favourite activity on bed.. (wait.. that just didnt sound right..) what i meant was obviously SLEEP. lol

it has been raining cows and elephants these days.. not forgetting having really cool lightnings now and then.. causing the already cacat-ed wireless connection even more hopeless.. the only place where the internet line isn't horrigible, terrigible and vegetable, is at the IT faculty.. so in order to bring myself out of being so super 'ulu', i'd have to drag my lazy ass and wet my feet in rain puddles just to get a decent connection... urgh.

anyways, have been raoming around the northern part of the peninsular.. though nothing beats my lil penang island, at least it's a good way of passing time and wasting money on petrol.. haha..


but, JIENY ANNY!!


guess what i found.. or more like 'who' i found?!


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no.. not jay chou..



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aint SYK either.. haha..

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jeng, jeng, jeng..

little DuDu at a gift shop in Jitra...

here he is again.. and this time, in my uni's souvenier shop! lol

he looks so much blue-er than bloo.. bloo has turned grey.. hehee.. just kidding

miss u girls so much!

going home tomorrow!!

love you.