i think i dont wanna grow up

as i get older, i learn to view a lot of things in a different perspective. i start to notice more on the small details in life; how much i'm blessed on a daily basis, how much my dearest parents shower me with unconditional love even when i'm already nearly the age of 23! i will always be their little amy girl in their eyes. while as much as brother dearest rarely shows that he cares, deep down he still does. some things doesnt need to be said upfront. amy's thankful because she nearly always gets what she wants =) NOTE: it's because amy dont always ask for stuff. i may be spoilt as the youngest child in a way but i'm certainly not a brat! =P

daddy's been very lenient and understanding for quite some time now. i guess as much as he has always wanted his amy girl to be a tough cookie, he realised that she's still vulnerable in being hurt and helpless. one thing i learned is that parents know best. they will always be there to guide and support you without a doubt, in which i'm glad that i could, like how facebook puts it, "re-connect with" my parents. ♥

the past few days spent back home had been great! brings back so much childhood memories on how i would just sit and stare at the tv while bro plays his PS for hours, pestering korkor day in day out, to get me stuff *grin*, doing stupid lame things and running around the house screaming like a brat... (ok, maybe this is whee bit exaggerated. i've toned down a lot and well, you all get what i mean.. lol) all in all, the princess is glad she's finally back home for good, for now.

on a random discussion, does anyone have any idea on how to differentiate local chinese girls with those from China? any particular facial structure or features that actually defines if one is from China or not? i know this may be stereotyping and the local chinese here in Malaysia are somewhat originated from China, but it is still differentiate-able right? i've been mistaken as a korean for a couple of times before. okay la.. i understand the small eyed, flat long face of the koreans which i have.. but recently, it's CHINA. *rolls eyes* China? i've been mistaken as a China girl not once, but TWICE! with AND without makeup. meh. is that suppose to be a compliment? cos i find it more of an insult. sad to say, i can only relate the China girls here as those who contribute to the service sector of a country's Gross National Product (GNP), which apparently is not recognised here in Malaysia. in non-economical terms, prostitutes. mind me for stereotyping again but generally, majority of them here are. now this is even more depressing. cos now i'm classified, slutty. sigh. =( i should start starving myself so that my flat long face becomes prominent again. haha

the China girl says hi.

A Yearly Affair

you know it's that time of the year when daddy brings out the precious XO Cognac and when we suddenly constitute to that percentage of the society that brings abundance of revenue to the BAT. it's the all soul's day, or how the chinese would call it, "cheng meng" or called differently depending on the certain dialects. a morning of preparations, burning of josstick and 'golden papers' and the hustle bustle of the jam. the only day in the year when u pay ur respects to the dead at their graves.

i can still remember those days with my great grandmother. she took good care of my brother and i each time mummy and daddy were out working even at the age of 70 over. i remember clearly waking up everyday to a cup of milo or a bowl of cereals set ready on the table throughout kindy and primary school. she always made sure we had something in our tummys before heading to school. she'd put on ours socks while we have our breakfast, and made sure my brother had 4 shiny gold coins of RM1 while i had 3 to go to school with, like little princes and princesses. yes, i must say i was very very blessed to actually go to school with RM3 for pocket money, thanks to daddy, mummy and great grannie dearest. i used to head right into her room every time i got home from school. nosing into what she was doing and playing with her rocking chair. she was the one i'd complain to, (yes, i'm full of complaints, even back when i was a little kid. lol) she was also the one who puts me to sleep during those nights when mummy had night shifts and daddy was out teaching or on diving trips. i'm thankful to actually have memories with the best great grannie ever though i didnt had the chance to meet great granpa. =) it has been 14 years now, please continue to watch over us from above alright? ♥

great grannie & yours truly

nothing beats spending time with family and friends. these are the people who has seen the best and worst in you throughout the years. these gatherings not only made me realise how much fun our childhood days were but also how fast time flies. the increase in wrinkle lines, pot bellies and evenly bleached coloured hair can clearly be seen in the "adult group" while the "children's group" no longer talk about toys, boys, girls, and nonsense but instead, our future plans and basically things with more substance. lols though this time only consisted of jiat n i, we did a lot of catching up =)

this time around, i've been making more time for daddy and mommy, learning to share all over again and basically communicate. not forgetting being a nuisance to my dearest brother; the typical young brat i was. lols. the attention seeker. =) didnt manage to bake this time though. i blame the weather. the heat seriously gets into my lazy bones.. hahaa

therefore, i'm on a noose. assignment deadline in two days! crap.

daddy still remembers amy girl likes green =) thank u papa ♥

when a bond breaks, old bonds mend and strengthen while new bonds form as well. nothing is the end of the world.

it's a process of life.

i.want.to.see.Lady.Gaga.and.... grrr.

you made my day =)

amazing how words from a total stranger can sound so convincing compared to the exact same words being poured out endlessly from people close to you.

from a conversation of how many packets of rice i'd like to order, diverted to my tongue piercing and to my relationship status. funny.. like what they always say, food brings people together. well, i think i'd have to agree on that. LOL

i finally received the best compliment or more like the only compliment which doesnt sound like, "*loud gasp* / OMG / is it painful?? / WwhhhhYYYyy???/*O.o*" or apart from those who are just curious how it would feel like making out with a girl with a pierced tongue. bleargh. lol the first thing that popped out was, "i like your tongue piercing *thumbs up*, this is what you call sexy."

"dont worry! there are loads of people out there who wants you." =)

on another note, bumping into long lost friends, like people whom you knew for ages ever since you were young but somehow lost touch is interesting. you start to hear embarrassing stories of yourself which you probably did not want to remember, digging up secrets and finally knowing the truth to some long lost mysteries and just talking about how much we've changed. brings back so much childhood memories of the craziest bunch i've ever met. good times =)

papa said, "it's a good thing that you see the true colours now, it was actually all fake."

oh well..

watch out peepo! i'm bringing sexy back~! lols