i dont know how things are going to be

i dont know what will happen in between

i dont know if it's real or not

i dont know if it's right or wrong

but all i know for now is,

i.miss.u.=)

CNY '10

i knoww.. Chinese New Year ended like, a month ago? but an update's still an update. lol. though this year's CNY seemed a lil quieter than the previous year, i'm thankful cos it was well spent with both family and friends =)

first off, the reunion dinner. the only time of the year where there is roast duck, chicken and pork ('char siew' AND 'siew yuk'.. *drools*) all served in a meal. yumms. and silly me forgot to take a picture of it. =( but last i remembered, there were exactly 10 dishes served that night! yes, i'm serious! including steamed fish, my favourite fried 'meng kuang' with fresh lettuce, fish belly soup, fried vegetable, braised sea cucumber with mix vegetables and not forgetting the traditional cantonese dishes of waxed meat ('lap mei': waxed sausages and duck meat) and braised mushrooms with muscles and 'fatt choy'.. another favourite chinese new year dish of mine ever since i was a kid.. me just *hearts* mushrooms to bits! then after was plain chill out session with a lil chit chat here and there.

DAY 1: started the day all dressed up in red, ready to usher in the new year! first with collecting BIG 'ang pows' from daddy, mummy and grannie greeting the elders and wishing them good health, longevity, wealth and happiness in those bombastic cantonese phrases which i have yet to master them all. haha then comes the 2nd most important meal of the festive, the first meal of the day which definitely must have a vegetarian dish. rice for breakfast, or somewhat brunch. there's just something about china men and rice. haha.. i dont know. i must admit that i'm a bit of a westernised Chinese. sad to say, dont really know much about my own roots. =( well, i shall find out about it one day =) for now, feast your eyes on the glorious food my mum and grannie prepared.

as always, daddy's liquor is a must. lol daddy the alcoholic, mummy the caffeine-holic/coffee addict, korkor the computer-holic/geek and me, the shopaholic of the family. we make a great team. lols

the complete set of dishes with the vegetarian dish in the middle. yuuumms.

after food, camwhore time! our annual family photo session. forgot to get those photos from dad's camera... =( but only the ones from my phone.. better than none =)

korkor, mummy dearest and yours truly.

somehow me likey this picture very much. probably cos bro finally smiled properly in this one. lol still, the colour and all makes it purrfectt! (considering that it's taken with a 3.2 megapixle phone only lehhh.. =))

bro and i

yes people, for the 15,749,398th time, he is my elder brother.. haha.. we are not twins therefore we dont look alike though we do share some common features.. notice our very superly long oval shaped face, fairly wide smile with our straight row of larger-than-usual set of teeth and, our fair skin. so, please dont sound so amazed that we're blood related. lols

aunt suzanne (the one and only closest aunt from daddy's side) and i

sadly, she recently left for Abu Dhabi to be with her hubby.. she makes the best companion to gossip, shop and hangout with! plus, my personal beautician and hairdresser =) now who's going to have a hard time handling my unruly wavy hair and my volcanic face. meh. hopefully i'll be able to pay her a visit by end of this year. woots! Abu Dhabi here i comeee~! screw Melbourne. (sorry ann, no offence LOL =P)

well, during this cny, i spent most of my free afternoons in the kitchen.. trying very hard to be the next famous amy. lols and guess what? batch 2 cookies tasted NEARLY somewhat like my favourite famous amos chocolate chip cookies! but the recipe wasnt really the same la.. still, i was in 7th heaven the moment i popped one freshly baked one into my mouth~! yumms. n again, the silly me forgot to take a picture of it. jeffery said it looks like cow shit (idiot), bro complained that there wasnt enough chocolate chips (as always) but daddy, mummy, granduncle philip, chou and wen said they loved it!! ♥

batch 3 : chocolate chip and raisin oatmeal cookies for daddy and also zheng which they both loved =)
i found myself a new guinea pig who appreciates my bakes. yay!

now, as a penangnite, one must, MUST go and pay a visit to the kek lok si temple during the festive season. it's the only time of the year when it's all light up prettily with decorative lights and lanterns. and again, i'm ashamed that i've never been there after all these years till now. lol it's simply beautiful, somewhat like a scene in Avatar at the ancestral trees or something..

i highly recommend this place to all the shutterbugs..

the place is filled with like, probably thousand over red and yellow lanterns.. occupying ever square inch of the ceilings and the edges of the roof tiles.. pweety.. me.likes. =)

apart from that would be the usual house hoping from the lim's to the fong's to the lee's and to the chew's, the meetups, gambling sessions, the endless partying and chilling sessions ♥ and the farewells =(

managed to party with yi xin again before she head back to kiwi land! =)

all in all, i was blessed with a fun filled week =)

♥

Uncle Kracker - Smile

You´re better then the best
I´m lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow that´s right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Lets me know that it´s ok yeah it´s ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Even when you´re gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Don´t know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes

You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

=)

♥

10.

not 10 days, nor 10 weeks, but 10 months.

i cringe at the thought of it,

while my heart twists in multiple endless knots.

at the end of the day, neither do i want to risk it.

it's just too precious.

=/

you know it's time when...

₪ you realise that you've finally ran out of tears. like how Johnson's & Johnson's put it, "no more tears" =)

₪ you no longer get frustrated over what things should/could/might have been and also the if only 's

₪ the anger and hatred built up inside you all these while is just no longer there anymore. you somehow feel indifferent when the issue pops up in a conversation

₪ you no longer feel hurt looking at things that reminded you of the past. but instead, you smile and come to an agreement with yourself that those were indeed great times, memories to be cherished =)

hope this holds true this time.

On this day of your life, Amy, we believe God wants you to know ... that although forgiveness is very hard, it is necessary. Holding onto anger and old hurts hardens your heart and hurts only you. Ask for help in letting go of the anger. Ask to see the situation through the eyes of compassion. Allow yourself to feel the lightness of forgiveness.

=)

so, i've been up and about the past few days. managed to meet yuv over dinner for our usual bitching catching up/updating session. we can never run out of stupid random things to talk about and days at camp never fails to be one of our favourite topics. friendships doesnt really matter on how long the duration of it but rather how you bond during a certain duration. to the point where you can just relate to the same flashbacks when a certain song is played. Blink 182's I Miss You gives me one of the best ever memories at camp - the 6 of us, digging into a tub of vanilla ice-cream on a sunday morning with that song blasting in the hall over and over again. *hearts* eh-pik!

apart from that, been studying for my exams and also frantically doing my last minute work as always.. after this 3 day break or somewhat, would be another stretch of mid terms and deadlines. sigh. oh ya, i'm back. lols. though i did say that i wouldnt have time to come back this weekend but hey, it's fated. all classes canceled =)

and i'm glad i came home.

CNY updates soooooOOonn.. me *hearts* cheongsams

48 hours, 2880 minutes for 14 minutes and 18 seconds. *smiles*

u make me smile like the sun

first thing's first, i'm back in uni. the good part of it is, apparently i'm not "emo" about it. the bad part is that it suddenly struck to me that I HAVE HEAPS OF WORK TO DO. which also means i cant even go home this weekend even though it's a long weekend off! but i guess i can at least spend more time with my uni friends since it's the last semester i'll ever see or even get to know them better. i've been up and about ever since i got back. but yet, i'm taking my own sweet time here, blogging. lol

embrace yourself people, i've turned over a new leaf. lols it seems to me that my tolerance level just climbed up a few notches. may it be for alcohol or just being patient. okay, i'm referring more on the latter. we shall discuss more about the former on another day. lol the past few days had been, pleasant. i wasnt stressed up over the pile of work load waiting for me, neither did i get agitated with the other drivers on the road while driving back to uni (and amazingly i didnt even went more than 120 km/h), nor to the fact that i cant even have my dear lappie turned on for more than 10 minutes before it decides to act spastic over and over again.

bottom line, i was and still am in a good mood.

to the point where i can laugh and smile at my own silly-ness rather than get all worked up with myself. me likey =) yes, i have been very very silly these days. i just spent an hour walking in circles trying to find a non-existent room of the wrong faculty. i swear, i could have just burst into tears if someone were to taunt me right at that moment. lols


my facial muscles are soon going into a spasm and will be stuck in that position if i continue to smile like an idiot all day long.


i better head off with my work. the upcoming 3 weeks will be a blast. shoot.

2 more hours. 120 more minutes. 7200 more seconds. =(

it makes ur ♥ skips abits

i guess i learned that people tend will definitely take things for granted. especially with things that are easy to obtain. so i am to be blamed for being an easy target all these while. =( oh well, will take things slow this time. time will tell, i hope.

so.why.am.i.blushing.and.smiling.

i'm such an easy blurt. me no likey.

still, excited and it skips abits!!!

tee hee hee

♥

very.random.thoughts.

i can still feel her hatered for me from her piercing stares. it's been like, nearly 5 years already lor... and i didnt do anything wei!!! i was more like the victim okay... >.<

it's officially official! i even introduce myself as that or people somehow knows me as that.

listening to Justin Bieber's songs gives me those high school butterflies-in-ur-stomach kinda feeling =)

yes, why was i so blind. so chot melebihhhh.. lols

funny how friendships just bond like magic.

i think.i vaguely remembered.something. oppss.

i'm a free woman!!! *grin*

he's i'm leaving soon first. =(

p/s : Happy Chinese New Year peeps!

20/2/2010
updates coming soon!

i got this from slong dearie's fb status,

"Do you know that women do not always mean what they say. They might say something and mean the exact opposite."

i dont deny it but still it makes us wonder why the mechanics to it have to be so complicated. women would always tend to drop hints in hopes that the men would get it but they never will..

it's like leaves in autumn =)

"We think they crumble away and disappear but in truth, they're always there, only scattered away by the winds of fate. And fate, as we all know, is a fickle thing.. Sometimes she drops one of those leaves in our path just to see what we do.. Of course, all of us are bound to pick it up.."

time to head forth and relive the autumn warmth.

wish me luck! <3

the scandalous duo

it was so obvious, they said the blind could see it.

it should have been but we were both playing the waiting game.

it was weird.

classically,

scandalous.

xoxo