another month is about to come to an end.

slowly amy, baby steps does it.

you experience, you learn, you grow.

thanks to those who kept me in their prayers, helped me go through the unbearable days and just being there when i thought i was alone. =)

quick update

ouh mee gawd. amy must stop procrastinating and get her wobbly fat ass back on track! stop slacking amy! *slaps* i had the most challenging week ever in this semester.. well, in regards of school work that is.. but all thanks to me laziness, i brought procrastination up to another level.

work assigned: 2 months from deadline
work started: 2 days from deadline

i was trying the impossible.. i had to take up clark kent's job, to be superwoman for 2 whole days. =/ and mind you, it isnt as simple as a "cut and paste" assignment. but requires a lot of research and reading on the current issue of implementing the new Goods and Services (GST) tax in Malaysia, which i dont like. lol and it constitutes 50% of my grade. meh. but thank God i was allowed to do it either in the malay language or english. so i saved a whole lot of time not having to translate my work into the malay language. haahaa i managed to pull through in the end.. but with the total of 10 hours of sleep in 48 hours plus the over-scheduled weekend before and the tiresome drive back to uni.

all in all, taxation's a bitch! even accounting students will definitely agree with me on that. =)

other than that, been busy filling up my schedules! cos i dont need free time in my hands which only leads to self-destruction, kamikaze mode. meh.

oh well. eenie minie moe. this is going to be interesting *smirks*

he ate my ♥

nothing beats spending time with family and friends. these are the people who has seen the best and worst in you throughout the years. these gatherings not only made me realise how much fun our childhood days were but also how fast time flies. the increase in wrinkle lines, pot bellies and evenly bleached coloured hair can clearly be seen in the "adult group" while the "children's group" no longer talk about toys, boys, girls, and nonsense but instead, our future plans and basically things with more substance. lols though this time only consisted of jiat n i, we did a lot of catching up =)

this time around, i've been making more time for daddy and mommy, learning to share all over again and basically communicate. not forgetting being a nuisance to my dearest brother; the typical young brat i was. lols. the attention seeker. =) didnt manage to bake this time though. i blame the weather. the heat seriously gets into my lazy bones.. hahaa

therefore, i'm on a noose. assignment deadline in two days! crap.

daddy still remembers amy girl likes green =) thank u papa ♥

when a bond breaks, old bonds mend and strengthen while new bonds form as well. nothing is the end of the world.

it's a process of life.

i.want.to.see.Lady.Gaga.and.... grrr.

*pouts*

daddddyyyy, mmmommyyy....

can i go ... i need a ... cos it's ... cos i want to see ... and also cos i miss ... so i need to ... I WANT TO GO ...

the annoyance of every youngest child brings.

*pester pester pester*

>.<

CNY '10

i knoww.. Chinese New Year ended like, a month ago? but an update's still an update. lol. though this year's CNY seemed a lil quieter than the previous year, i'm thankful cos it was well spent with both family and friends =)

first off, the reunion dinner. the only time of the year where there is roast duck, chicken and pork ('char siew' AND 'siew yuk'.. *drools*) all served in a meal. yumms. and silly me forgot to take a picture of it. =( but last i remembered, there were exactly 10 dishes served that night! yes, i'm serious! including steamed fish, my favourite fried 'meng kuang' with fresh lettuce, fish belly soup, fried vegetable, braised sea cucumber with mix vegetables and not forgetting the traditional cantonese dishes of waxed meat ('lap mei': waxed sausages and duck meat) and braised mushrooms with muscles and 'fatt choy'.. another favourite chinese new year dish of mine ever since i was a kid.. me just *hearts* mushrooms to bits! then after was plain chill out session with a lil chit chat here and there.

DAY 1: started the day all dressed up in red, ready to usher in the new year! first with collecting BIG 'ang pows' from daddy, mummy and grannie greeting the elders and wishing them good health, longevity, wealth and happiness in those bombastic cantonese phrases which i have yet to master them all. haha then comes the 2nd most important meal of the festive, the first meal of the day which definitely must have a vegetarian dish. rice for breakfast, or somewhat brunch. there's just something about china men and rice. haha.. i dont know. i must admit that i'm a bit of a westernised Chinese. sad to say, dont really know much about my own roots. =( well, i shall find out about it one day =) for now, feast your eyes on the glorious food my mum and grannie prepared.

as always, daddy's liquor is a must. lol daddy the alcoholic, mummy the caffeine-holic/coffee addict, korkor the computer-holic/geek and me, the shopaholic of the family. we make a great team. lols

the complete set of dishes with the vegetarian dish in the middle. yuuumms.

after food, camwhore time! our annual family photo session. forgot to get those photos from dad's camera... =( but only the ones from my phone.. better than none =)

korkor, mummy dearest and yours truly.

somehow me likey this picture very much. probably cos bro finally smiled properly in this one. lol still, the colour and all makes it purrfectt! (considering that it's taken with a 3.2 megapixle phone only lehhh.. =))

bro and i

yes people, for the 15,749,398th time, he is my elder brother.. haha.. we are not twins therefore we dont look alike though we do share some common features.. notice our very superly long oval shaped face, fairly wide smile with our straight row of larger-than-usual set of teeth and, our fair skin. so, please dont sound so amazed that we're blood related. lols

aunt suzanne (the one and only closest aunt from daddy's side) and i

sadly, she recently left for Abu Dhabi to be with her hubby.. she makes the best companion to gossip, shop and hangout with! plus, my personal beautician and hairdresser =) now who's going to have a hard time handling my unruly wavy hair and my volcanic face. meh. hopefully i'll be able to pay her a visit by end of this year. woots! Abu Dhabi here i comeee~! screw Melbourne. (sorry ann, no offence LOL =P)

well, during this cny, i spent most of my free afternoons in the kitchen.. trying very hard to be the next famous amy. lols and guess what? batch 2 cookies tasted NEARLY somewhat like my favourite famous amos chocolate chip cookies! but the recipe wasnt really the same la.. still, i was in 7th heaven the moment i popped one freshly baked one into my mouth~! yumms. n again, the silly me forgot to take a picture of it. jeffery said it looks like cow shit (idiot), bro complained that there wasnt enough chocolate chips (as always) but daddy, mummy, granduncle philip, chou and wen said they loved it!! ♥

batch 3 : chocolate chip and raisin oatmeal cookies for daddy and also zheng which they both loved =)
i found myself a new guinea pig who appreciates my bakes. yay!

now, as a penangnite, one must, MUST go and pay a visit to the kek lok si temple during the festive season. it's the only time of the year when it's all light up prettily with decorative lights and lanterns. and again, i'm ashamed that i've never been there after all these years till now. lol it's simply beautiful, somewhat like a scene in Avatar at the ancestral trees or something..

i highly recommend this place to all the shutterbugs..

the place is filled with like, probably thousand over red and yellow lanterns.. occupying ever square inch of the ceilings and the edges of the roof tiles.. pweety.. me.likes. =)

apart from that would be the usual house hoping from the lim's to the fong's to the lee's and to the chew's, the meetups, gambling sessions, the endless partying and chilling sessions ♥ and the farewells =(

managed to party with yi xin again before she head back to kiwi land! =)

all in all, i was blessed with a fun filled week =)

♥

Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

Picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk,
And I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now.


i *hearts* music =)

i miss you mei.

it still hurts, badly.

the pain is still there.

Jason Walker - Down

I don't know where I'm at
I'm standing at the back
And I'm tired of waiting
Waiting here in line, hoping that I'll find what I've been chasing.

I shot for the sky
I'm stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I'm going to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it's coming down, down, down.

Not ready to let go
Cause then I'd never know
That I could be missing
I'm missing way too much
So when do I give up what I've been wishing for

I shot for the sky
I'm stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I'm going to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it's coming down, down, down.
Oh I'm going down, down, down
Can't find another way around
And I don't want to hear the sound, of losing of what I never found.

I shot for the sky
I'm stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I'm going to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
I never know why it's coming down, down, down.
I shot for the sky
I'm stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I'm going to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Oh it's coming down, down, down


it didnt hold true, again.
i'm so tired baby, so tired.

i'm changing and it's scaring me. and because of that, i'm stressed and depressed. shoot.

update soon.

updated:

is it me or i'm really becoming more patient? i must agree that humans are easily influenced. somehow or rather, some people are able to bring out the best or worse in you. it just happens. i'm being pretty nice recently, back to the amy that lets people push her around and sometimes lets them perform their little rain dance on her head as well. but this time around, it doesnt frustrates me at all. which in turn, scares me. there were a number of incidents which occurred throughout the past weeks of which i'm very sure that would have pissed me off but it didnt. instead, it didnt bother me the slightest bit or even at most, 3 minutes of frustration and that's it. very weird. but at times, i think the stress builds up unconsciously till the point that tears just starts to form in my eyes for no apparent reason!

what is wrong with me? =/

i want to go home. i want to just hug my dear garfield and have a good cry.

fresh apple juice with sour plums ('sem bui'). cant beat the one at rangoon road though. =)

Season 2 Episode 10

"If i could take back what happened last year, I would. I think about it every single day."

Liam Court, 90210

"The truth is, I'm still hung up on someone else, someone I thought I was over."

Naomi Clarke, 90210

so much drama i can relate to. but still, liking it. lols

yet, there's no such simple and easy thing as 'kiss and make up'. pfftt..

Uncle Kracker - Smile

You´re better then the best
I´m lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow that´s right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Lets me know that it´s ok yeah it´s ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Even when you´re gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Don´t know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes

You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

=)

♥

10.

not 10 days, nor 10 weeks, but 10 months.

i cringe at the thought of it,

while my heart twists in multiple endless knots.

at the end of the day, neither do i want to risk it.

it's just too precious.

=/